I thank God...

Whenever I have a bit of time just to look out of the window from my balcony, I would stare out far and ponder. I love to let my eyes stretch across the horizon and my mind to go beyond it. It is a good break from the hours of back breaking studying, or rather the attempt from it. Well this time as I looked out of the window, I can't help but feel thankful for all the things that has happen in my life.

I thank God firstly for the provision of this laptop for without it, this post would not have been possible. Close friends would know that I am an appliance jinx. Anything electronic that I own would somehow malfunction sooner or later. Who remembers my 8310? Or better still my desktop? For older stuffs you can take a look at my discman and pager. Ironically the things that truly lasts in my hands are my hand me downs. Anyone wanna bet how long this laptop would last?

But that's another story for another day.

Today my mind brings me to a trip down memory lane...

God has given me a wonderful family, a loving partner, friends of immeasurable loyalty from all over and a life comfortable enough. Really I can never thank all of you guys enough for all that you all have given me. I am not rich beyond count nor do I possess intelligence beyond comprehension. But I am thankful that I have had so far had what I would call an easy life. I am here today in life not due to much hard work but through God's grace. For the past few years of my life, I was merely wheezing through it. From secondary school or rather from the time I could be held responsible for my own actions, all I did was to take each day as it comes. Tests exams whatever, to pluto with them. Life was meant to be enjoyed as I've always believed. I somehow passed my Os and even unbelievably even my As. Obviously, I did'nt get good results, because I simply do not deserve them.

But God was gracious enough to allow me to scrape a pass and threw me into a position in army which I had truly enjoyed. Ironically I back slided a while. Well I would not exactly say I have left my relationship with God, let's just say I just went further away from Him. The 2 years I've had in army really puts a lot of things into perspective. I have seen a recruit younger than me asking my fellow colleague to help him get a day off as his child was sick. Some asking for an advancement of pay just to clear debts. Some totally unable to stand the regimentaion of army life. Some unfortunately so poor in health that event the simplest of task is a chore. Many more with broken families and lives in disarray. It's scary but true. But through this dark couple of years God has neither left me nor forsaken me. So many times I was blessed by His protection over me. In SISPEC, in Taiwan, and back in BMTC, He has shielded me from injuries (fatal ones even), extras, backstabbings and even nasty or unreasonable superiors. He gave me energy to train and wisdom to lead and impart. God is good.

The 2 years flew by and I'm back in school again. School fees are costly and once again He has provided for me. I'm happy to say that I have returned back to church. All thanks to some concerned church friends who drew me back. It's time to wake up from the long slumber of mine. While it is true that God is gracious and kind, it is also true that God helps people who help themselves. While He is ultimately in control of your life, I believe it is us who decide how it turns out. Maybe that is why I studied more than I ever did for the Statistic paper tomorrow. Of course it amounts to nothing compared to the amount of time spent studying from some others I know (hint hint). Nevertheless it is a start. It is time to start honoring Him through the actions of my life.

I've had a full life and I plan to keep it that way. Its so sad that Steve Irwin just passed away hours ago. He was my favourite presenter on TV. Animal planet would never be the same again. Life is so fragile. That shook me up and freaked me out. No one knows what's in store for them. I may never reach 40 even, no one knows. Therefore to all readers, live your life to the fullest. Spend your time meaningfully and with purpose. In all things that you do, be a blessing unto others.

Don't know why I suddenly think so much today but oh well. That balcony window is enchanted I'm telling you. Haha. Just some random stuffs out of my mind again.

Back to studying and I leave this couple of sentences to all christians which I hope to live by...

Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you...

In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make straight your path...